Hotel Books – Nicole lyrics

I think I’m losing you, but I will never regret choosing you
'Cause I am in love, and for now, that will be enough
And the ones around me convince me that I was the only person
Who was dumb enough to believe that you and I had hope
But now I know even after you began to let your emotions slow
The only reason I stood alone was because I was the only one
Who knew our love was never going to let go

Everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive
So gouge out my eyes, because if this is reality
Then I guess I’m not alive, because I don’t know a life
In where I can’t make things right
And when life teaches you to drive and you finally say goodbye
And you won’t let me stand by your side
I'll know that though some feelings are hurt, none will have died

'Cause I used to stay up at night
And picture myself looking into your eyes
Shouting as you would sigh
“How dare you think you can fall asleep
With water dripping from the kitchen sink?
How dare you think you can fall asleep
With all these little leaks in this home we built in our dreams?”

A picture is worth a thousand words or whatever people say to me
It’s hard to believe when your mind is lost and in need
And all you can picture is a memory
Inside of someone else’s sheets
A prayer that nothing will keep, a hope that light will seek
Before the dark sinks too deep, or at least the sinking feeling
Inside of me will decrease when the release of perceived dreams
Burn in the flame of feeling free
So feel free to be free, if that’s what you need

And if someday you feel alone
And everything caves in when you try to breathe
Know that you're not alone as far as I can see
Because you were everything to me

Through this, I've realized that if I were God
We would have all just died, because darling
You were mine and now I feel so dead inside
And what good am I if all I can create
Is a projection of my own mind?
A dream of finding time to remind you
That I’m still here and I’m not fine
And darling, if you’re going to leave
Just remember who you are
And do what you can to remember me

Maybe someday we can talk about our past
And we can talk about the weather
Whenever you leave, I don’t care what I’m remembered for
I just want to be remembered
Because even if I failed you, at least I tried
And maybe our lives don’t add up now
But someday our graves will look the same when we both die
And if I had a chance I’d give you one last kiss
And I’d bite down on your lip and I’d try to puncture it
So you’ll never forget that time, but you’ll always regret

And darling, I know that sometimes
Life will take a turn for the worst
And sometimes, life will even hurt
And I know some days, some days
Some days, you're afraid of the lessons you’ll have to learn
And some days, you’ll even feel burned
And I want to let you know that I want to love you through them
But I always get what I deserve