Crossfade – Cold lyrics

I think sometimes in relationships, its hard to really break down and show our vulnerable side. So we put up barriers. We put up walls. We put up a cold front to make sure our hearts aren't broken. I think this song is about a guy who did that and didn't realize it until it was too late. He never meant to be so cold, but it just kinda happened.

This guy felt like a jerk and wants to show his true love that he is really sorry for everything that ever happened. In relationships, its super hard to keep certain things out of the way, and try to focus on the couple themselves. And if the something comes in the way. That can sometimes lead to heartbreak and nonforgiveness. And if the guy really cares about this girl. He will straighten up and show that he really wants to be with her. He just didn't want to show the bad side of him because he wanted to be perfect for her. Well there is no perfect person and there is no perfect relationship. For me. I really wish there was a side that I could see for the guys I've been dating. But sometimes the grass isn't greener on the other side.

Having gone through a restoration program myself, I really do understand. I saw always knew you holding something back, and being the person I was then, I did what I always do. I thought the worst of you. I thought the worst of everyone. Your family, my family and even your neighbours.
I always thought about myself. You always said that I'm selfish, and it made me angry. I never thought I was. You were right though. I was consumed in what I wanted. Yes I saw you holding something back. I also saw pain. I also saw trauma and I chose to ignore that. Had I given you your due and pay more attention to you I could've been a better partner. But I failed and accused you of cheating. I know now how that must of hurt. Being accused of cheating while having to deal with what you have be en through, must have been real painful. Yes, I am very sorry and I know that saying is not enough. (Your apology is accepted - thank you). I have much work to do on myself. It's gonna start with complete honesty. That's all I'll say now. One day at a time. Do know I want to do all I can to assure you that this has no impact on how I feel about you and nor on what I want for us. Long time ago, you mentioned couples counseling. I feel we should. To the entire Arendse Family and extended Family. Know that I Love Lisa. I Love her dearly. I cannot function without her. I cannot forgive myself for being a better partner. If by God's grace, Lisa allows me into her life again, I would like each and every one of you to know that I respect her very much. She has proven to be the toughest cookie I know. And she and this experience has taught me much. Lisa I love you. And yes I can look past this. Please know that it's the past, and it has no bearing on who you are. Coming out of this you are nothing short of amazing and woman from across the world should like up to you. It must be hard. And if this is the only way you can tell me. That is fine. To my Family, The Adams, Wyngaards, Williams and Scholtz families. Lisa is my better 3 quarters. Lisa is the woman I want to marry. I Love her that much. And it's my God given responsibility. Yes, I talk to him. Thank you to all of you, I can never thank you enough for what you have done in Lisa's Life as well as mine. Ans Yes, I would love to see these 2 families united. Lisa, I will propose this time. Lisa, the value You add to my life is much more than I deserve. Do know that without you I am lost. You are not just my better 3 quarters, but I also learned that you my sanity as well. Sorry for the hurt I caused You. Sorry for disappointing You. Sorry for not being there for You. Please forgive me and know that a chance at a fresh start will be much appreciated and worth it. I Love You, To infinity and beyond, always and forever, No Matter what!

We are the way we are. This song shows that in relationships we often take each other for granted and try hard "to stand our ground", while, that way, we actually kill the love, hurt each other, fall apart. And only when one partner says enough and walks away, we realize that relationship is about "being together, compromising, changing our ways rather than trying to prove to be "right" and we are sorry. But - it is too late.

I'm a jerk. A big one. Never realizing everything she was to me. I only cared about myself and things I wanted and things I needed. She wasn't put first like she should have been. She was always secondary to me. She leaves, making me realize what a jerk I've been, how self absorbed, how inconsiderate I have been. She loved me and I'll didn't show her any love back or very little. She felt alone, invisible, unloved, that is never cared about her but only what she could do for me or how she made me feel. No mutual respect shown the her. A one sided realtionship, she gave I took. I didn't mean to be like this never wanted to be like that. I wanted to show her how much she meant to me. I wanted to resiprocate the love, respect, and care she shown me but it just wasn't who I am. I was always accusing her, not believing or trusting her, some would call it paranoia at it's worst because of things I seen growing up that no one should have to have witnessed. I never seen the good in anyone only the worst. Even in her even though I didn't want to and I wanted to trust her and be nice and understanding and considerate but years upon years of being brainwashed to believe a certain way leaves a darkness that's hard to hide or control.