In Her Own Words – I Could've Been lyrics

[Verse 1]
You never wanted to see me leave this,
I never wanted to stick around.
And there's a rainstorm in my head that
I just can't outrun right now.

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm faking smiles and stomachs aches
So I can get away.
Sometimes I think that I'm the only
One who feels this way.

[Spoken]
The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head,
And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them.
It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it?
But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way.

[Chorus]
I thought that with a change of pace,
That I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn,
I guess I'm never gonna learn!

[Verse 2]
I tried to make it to the ending
Of a book I never read.
I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps.

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches
When I start to feel trapped.
It's hard to breathe.
I never thought that I would lie
To the ones who stay close to me.

[Chorus]
I thought that with a change of pace,
That I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn,
I guess I'm never gonna learn!

[Outro]
Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been)
I couldn't be all that you wanted.
Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been)
I couldn't be all that you wanted.