Silent Planet – Panic Room lyrics

Lustrous lines obscured by opaque blinds -
Frozen metacarpals tap tap tap the window glass
Syncopated staccatos with the broken clock
Synchronized with my post-traumatic ticks ticks -
Talking to the space in the room that echoes back indiscernibly
To my disconnected self/self -
It’s self-consuming, what's ensuing is my undoing -
The nightly casualty of war. [1]

And it sounds like this: War, endless war

In my endless dance with entropy
I must rescind my sentience
The sickness that I know. [2]
Rearrange the disarray of disintegrated senses -
Puzzle pieces, spectral splinters of a soldier’s worn and tattered soul
In my endless dance with entropy
I must rescind my sentience
The sickness that I know

Machines of air looking down on us [3] -
The beasts of dust as we grapple heel and hand, [4]
Mud and sand, (blood red oil) [5]
The chaff of the harvest [6]
Converted to currencies of wealthy means
Stepping stones cut from our perforated bones
Riches are reaped beside our bodies sown just to be thrown back again
And forgotten if we stumble in
Laid inside a homeless nest, [7]
Stuck with eager dirty needles, [8]
Shipped to an early steeple where boxes close
Descend with grace as you defend yourself -
Both charitable and chaste. [9]
Praise me for my valor, lay me on a crimson tower -
Justify my endless terror as my “finest hour.” [10]
Treat me as a token to deceive the child
Whom we fatten for this scapegoat slaughter. [11]

I learned to fight
I learned to kill
I learned to steal
I learned that none of this is real
None of this is real
None of this is real
None of this is real

But there’s a war inside my head

Beleaguered by my breathing - choking, screaming, heaving
Time drags me back to the desert
This is war:
A child stumbles from the wreckage holding his salvation -
The trigger to cessation - to end us all
I took a life that takes mine
Every quiet moment we collapse
Have you forsaken us? [12]
All the darkness comes alive. [13]
Take my hand, drag me to the void. [14][15]

[FOOTNOTES]
01 — Soldiers who have shared post-war experiences with us, especially Jeriel Clark.
02 — Come Wind, Come Weather, A Flood Strong Enough to Consume the House
03 — The Drone Army of The United States.
04 — Genesis 25:26
05 — Michael Klare, Blood and Oil
06 — Isaiah 33:11
07 — Between 1/4 — 1/2 of chronically homeless males in America are veterans.
08 — Aaron Glantz, The War Comes Home
09 — Jerry Falwell and a number of other evangelical voices advocating “pro-war” positions.
10 — Winston Churchill
11 — Leviticus 016:010
12 — Matthew 27:46
13 — Rodney Ascher, The Nightmare
14 — PTSD and related disorders due to combat stress often
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15 — This song was inspired by the testimony of our friend, Jeriel Clark, and is dedicated to every listener who has experienced the horrors of armed conflict. We love you, we are thankful for you.