SJ – I Am lyrics

I am sitting around wonder why wonder why it is that I can swim but I can't fly
I am counting pennies duckin' calls staring at walls stripped down naked soul socks and a bow
I am calling foes missing friends watching lives end trying to find where the new lines begin
I am crossing fingers flipping cards wondering why wondering why truth itself is the best lie

I am paying to lose, I'm paying to win, I'm paying with their fake prayers, but mostly my so-called sins
I pay them so they don't, I pay them so they do
And for just a little more I can't stay deaf, dumb, blind, lost and confused

I am falling down forgetting to sleep I lose my head at least five days a week
I am chasing away wolves and woes and girls who knows, caught the ball forgot how to throw
I am finding rhythm melody and notes I wonder why wonder why heavy never floats
I am fixin' scores clearing drawers settling wars 'cause tomorrow I won't be here anymore

I am paying to choose, I'm paying to breathe, I am paying with magic tokens and one teaspoon of magic beads
I pay them so they don't, I pay them so they do
And for just a little more I can stay deaf, dump, blind, lost and confused

Well, I am paying to lose, I'm paying to win, I'm paying with their fake prayers, but mostly my so-called sins
I pay them so they don't, I pay them so they don't
And for just a little more I can't stay deaf, dumb, blind, lost and confused

I am sitting around wonder why wonder why it is that I can swim but I can't fly
I am counting pennies ducking calls staring at walls stripped down naked soul socks and a bow
Hmmm, yeah, yeah, yeah I am finding rhythm melody and notes wondering why wondering why heavy never floats
I am fixin' scores clearing drawers settling wars 'cause tomorrow I won't be here anymore
I am I am I am I, I am I am I am I, I am I am I am I, I am