Mayfield – Lost Eternally lyrics

I hate to say it but I don't think about you as much as I did
You left your mark on my skin
I never thought it would be this hard to forget you and the things you left in me- they grew their roots the day you just collapsed from the weight
Over and over you clung to your bleeding heart

You held my hand when I was young
If you found God, I'd like to know

Are you down in the dirt?
Rusted and run down; the pain was too much
He put the gun to his skull, left his blood on the walls- cleared a space in his head

They said in time all of this would heal, but thats not quite how I feel
It's not the passing days that will sew me back
'Cause I have come to terms with why you killed yourself, but why you chose to abandon us all I wish to never know

You held my hand when I was young
If you found God, I'd like to know- will there be time and a place to see all the love I've lost eternally?

Down in the dirt
Rusted and run down; the pain was too much
He put the gun to his skull, left his blood on the walls- cleared a space in his head
Now he's dead
Dead like the leaves that fell from the trees
November 15th, you're always with me
I'm a constant reminder to always believe things will get better. Take it from me

Now you're living through the distant memories
I've given lots of thought to all of this
The loss I feel will never be replaced, so I'll scream my heart out to let you live again

I try and feel you here, just like you never left my side
This cut is deep so let me sleep, it's the only way you're alive
You lived for adventure and the natural highs
Climbing mountains, falling from the sky
You took your life, well I'm still here
I feel your essence in the forest air