Youth. He's living the reality that he is no longer a child. Not able to find hidout or cover in his parents, or other adults that take the blame for you when you are young and inexperienced, still learning about life. He wants to relive the days where he was young and enjoyed life, regreting some mistakes he madde and couldn't fix as an adult. He's old and tired of being told to follow the law or to do this or that. Being a kid not responsible for anything. Youth.