She's sayinq that she just wants to forget because she wasted to much time with him and she can't wait til she can finally let him go because its drivinq her crazy she wish that she could change beinq with him. And when she's with him shes with him things don't feel the same;;; she havinq vad thoughts from being with him and everythings gone down fall and she wasted too much tim in tryiinq to make the relasionship work;;; and he only things about him self and make decisions for himself and she's jkust become miserable over all;;; she's not the same person that she once was and she's gonna leave him and all this is killinq her.