it's selfish for u to want to kill yourself because u may have alot of people that care about but it is also selfish of them to want you to stay alive when they might not even know why u want to die it's selfish both ways but it's up to you to decide how u want to go. I used to wanna kill myself then i stopped but recently i have been wanting to but for some reason my dad and my girlfriend and all my friends keep giving me reasons not to kill my self so i am very grateful for them i am so happy that they are in my life and i just gotta live my life til i die and go up to heaven with my mom who died last year from cancer