This song is like what I need to tell my mum. She needs to here this song and actually listen to the lyrics.
Anyway, to some extent I agree with foreverme. Like his mum is angry at him for the things that he's done in his life, saying he'll go to hell, but he's turning around and saying "mama, we all go to hell". It's kind of spitting in her face with the "it's really quite pleasent exept for the smell" but then again, she's not being the best mother, so he kind of has the right.
This is the way I would tell it to my own mother:.
"mama, we all go to hell.
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well".
My mum found out I self harmed and id say this like don't worry about me because we all go to hell anyway. What I'm doing isn't going to change anything. And "im writing this letter and wishing you well" I mean this in the nicest and most respectful way possible, like I'm wishing you well.
"mama, we're all gonna die,.
Stop asking me questions I hate to see you cry".
This is like stop asking me why I do this, you can't understand unless you've been through it yourself. I would tell you but I can't, I hate to see you cry (believe me, seeing your mother cry is one of the worst things in the world).
The chorus is like when I leave you, either running from home, getting emancipated, commiting suicide or just becoming so distant from everything it's like I'm not there anymore, don't blame yourself, I don't want you to be sad because of me. "we'll let the fires just bathe us" ill be happy when I go, i'll be in a better place. Note that it's we let the fires bathe us, like we want it to happen.
"she said 'you ain't no son of mine',
For what you done they're gonna find, yeah,.
A place for you and just you mind,.
Your manners when you go.
And when you go don't return to me my love. "
This was like my mums reaction when she found out I cut, like at first she was like "no. My daughter wouldn't do this, you aren't my daughter. And then soon after she tried to make me see a therapist and she told me to be nice. For alot of people that would've helped, but not for me. Idk, it's complicated.
"well mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,.
You should have raised a baby girl,.
I should have been a better son.
If you could coddle the infection.
They can amputate at once.
You should have been,.
I could have been a better son. "
This is basically what I'm gonna do when I'm sick of her messing with my life. Like this will be my response out of anger. Ill be like "going through this made me change, you have a problem with my attitude, but it's not my attitude it's just me (what the war did to my legs and tounge. War like the battle against myself). If i wasn't a good daughter, if i disappointed you, maybe you shouldv'e raised a different daughter (basically blaming it all on her). I shouldv'e been a better kid, well guess what? Im not who you want me to be. "
"and if you would call me your sweetheart,.
I'd maybe then sing you a song. "
This'd be my mum responding to the above being like if you could just love me again, i'll be nice to you, ill sing you a song.
"but the s*t that I've done,.
With this f*k of a gun,.
You would cry out your eyes all along. "
And me again, saying like if you knew all the s*t that I've actually done you would cry out your eyes all along.
Wow this is really long and pointless haha, but yee: 3.