5150 – Hard Times lyrics

I've tried to pick myself up off of the ground,
But what's the point of trying to get up;
I'd rather stay down,
Cuhz all I feel and absorb is the negativity,
Around me, surrounding me, everyday
Lord, come and carry me away,
I wish, that I could say,
"I'm living my life happily"
-I'm lying to myself, cuhz all that shit is far from reality;
My daddy working two jobs, just to survive,
I'm like a major disappointment;
Disappointed in myself, sometimes I wanna cry;
But there's no more tears, to shed,
I drop to my knees everytime I go to bed;
I pray and I pray and I pray;
For a door to open up a better way;
For a better day,
It seems like even God doesn't hear me,
Excuse the blasphemy;
But if you there, please show me a way,
(Lord, show me away)
If you there, please show me a way,
(Lord, show me away)

When all goes wrong;
Makes it hard to hold on,
My grip is slippin,
Please show me a way, to a brighter day,
And all I'm missing

Tell me where to go from here,
I can't cry,
Too much I done witnessed over the years;
My tear ducts, are dry,
No direction, nowhere to turn,
Cuhz every path I choose I'mma get burned;
Smoking on that La La,
Just to ease the hurt from all the inner demons that I'm faced
When is all the drama gonna end,
Again and again;
Do you believe in Karma?
I done kicked, it in a good tip
But nothin good has ever come around my way,
Only bullshit,
So I take another sip, of that Hennyy
Hopin I can ease the tension;
Cuhz I'm losing grip of reality, in this dimension,
Aint it funny how,
Muthafuckas go from:
"Loving you to hating you,
Homies to phonies,
Fakes then snakes,
Bitches to Heartaches"

If you're there God, please show me a way,
I said, if you're there God, please show me a way,
(Please show me a way)

When all goes wrong;
Makes it hard to hold on,
My grip is slippin,
Please show me a way, to a brighter day,
And all I'm missing

Life is sink or swim;
And I'm submerging in the deep end,
Ankles attached to shackles,
Memories that were meant to be forgotten,
Impatiently awaits me, at the rotting bottom,
Luckily, mighty waters in translucent,
So the sun scattered rays, can still, guide me to surface,
And it hurts, to struggle,
Better have faith and hope,
Knowing that pain, is gain,
And in the end it's all worth it,
In this world of illusions people succumb to rumors,
And come to conclusions, about you,
Only God knows the truth,
So fuckk what this world thinks,
Instead of hoping one rise, you'd rather watch one sink,
And love is the only thing, that I've ever wanted;
To be honest.
Lonliness still holds me hostage,
My heart is half callaused with fear, shame, pain and malice,
If you're there God, please show me a way to surpass it,

When all goes wrong;
Makes it hard to hold on,
My grip is slippin,
Please show me a way, to a brighter day,
And all I'm missing