Kangel – Tears That I Cry lyrics

These memories lie in the tears that I cry and nobody is here all the love disappeared
Destroyed all my pride thinking back on the night where I wanted to die cuz I hated my life

Turn around and walk away
I need some personal space
To get my mind straight and disappear without a trace
My life is just a waste of money and minutes
Like love is just a waste of my tears and my feelings
Nobody else is living my life except myself
I can choose to ignore the conditions of my health
Bad days become weak days and hard to really speak
Explain what's on my mind and everything all combined
Dammit I ain't lying
Dear god I feel like dying
Why is it every night that my eyes continue crying?
Alone here in the dark and writing these last words
My gift is not a blessing
My obsession is a curse
Thought it couldn't be worse
Feeling how much it hurts
My pride is ready to burst from putting myself first
Trying to help someone else before I can help myself
I wanted to end the pain that's real is how I felt

These memories lie in the tears that I cry and nobody is here all the love disappeared
Destroyed all my pride thinking back on the night where I wanted to die cuz I hated my life

How many fuckin times do a young one have to try
Still struggling to live but still itching to die
Sometimes I used to cry because I felt nobody cared
All the pain I used to have I felt no one could share
Sometimes I felt alone because no one was even there
My days of tears are done because there's no more tears to she'd
All I see it in my head like how I'm gonna die
Leave my body lying cold my fans n peeps will cry
And Bullets will always fly
Your mommas will always try
To see the lil kid's G each ride up in the sky
And it's worth every minute when we stare into their eyes
And kids did daddy's tried it but to blind it with pride
So instead they gotta hide
Don't kno if the kid's alive trying to hold on the feeling
And we see that's just a lie
Because most men do it
Doesn't mean it makes it right
It takes two to make a life
One husband and his wife

These memories lie in the tears that I cry and nobody is here all the love disappeared
Destroyed all my pride thinking back on the night where I wanted to die cuz I hated my life

There's lots of kids sleepin I'm still tossin n turning
Deep inside I'm still flossing this burn
And I cry like a b1tch one nobody's around
It's a pain I hide inside so I never make a sound
I'm a soldier from the very day I was born
And when it's over that's the quote for my tombstone
20 years gone by I feel like I'm chasin a lie
They tell me don't chase things unless ur willin to die
And at this point straight up I stopped givin a fuk
Too many scars in this mess
I feel like giving it up
I guess it's karma but fuk my karma don't work
I do good expecting good but instead I get hurt
I'm society's dirt, well fed in metro houses
Convicted a few times I can never be renounced
My life is a poem in a story you see
But all I really ask was to see me for me
And I kno that lost souls will pity it all
Even when you fall down you gotta learn how to crawl
My heart's harder the wall
Maybe that's why I can't show any feeling for this world
That's why they don't know

These memories lie in the tears that I cry and nobody is here all the love disappeared
Destroyed all my pride thinking back on the night where I wanted to die cuz I hated my life