Sirius – Fucked Up! lyrics

Sunk so deep you won't believe,
I can't proceed with this over me,
I know what you think when you say my name,
Talk about me like "Oh he changed,"
Another dope is up his nose,
And I don't know if I can trust him,
And the smell of alcohol is too much for me to go hug him,
And it's hard to take, hard to watch, hard to look away.
But it's worst to be in the middle of this shit,
Try to make up why to stay.
So I underestimate people, lie to myself,
But I'm easy to see trough,
Used to be so proud but, take a look at these eyes,
Take a look at me now.

Everybody got a problem with me,
But then again no one said life's easy,
Now I gotta watch where I put my feet,
Some don't even want to look at me.
Every now and then I think back,
If I took another choice where will I be at?
Momma said I'm proud of you, and my dad want to help me, guide me through,
And I do want to change, but I keep coming back to the same old same,
Snort a line, while I write a rime about quitting shit for a better life.
What the fuck is that, where's the discipline?
This thing to bring out the bitch in me,
And did I make this song for the sympathy?
I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it.

Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.

It's dark tonight, I miss the sunlight,
I miss saying things like "thanks I'm alright."
When you ask me, how I'm feeling, well I'm happy, when I'm dreaming.
It's a whole other world in my head, when I close my eyes in my bed.
Cause I make up places and people, replace myself if I need to.
Three little birds on my doorstep,
I see what it means when I go there.
So peaceful, so quiet, all alone, but self reliant,
I came to the point when I put the mic down and said I'm done.
And with a life like this you might just feel like
Putting steel on your tongue.

Cause I swear to God, I've seen suicides, I knew people who took the wrong,
So rest in peace to the people I knew, cause I know you can hear my song.
And I will be strong for me and you, do what they tell me that I can't do,
In all your names, I'm-ma fight, so I walk on the stage for you tonight.
So when the light hits me I'm-ma shine for you,
Bottom line I'm-ma lie for you, they gotta kill me to make us meet again,
Cause I'm never giving up, I ain't leaving yes.
It's not for me no more, it's for all of us,
I see you when I see you, I love you all.

Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.