To me. No I wouldn't forgive anyone either. To feel duped, tricked, deceived, by the person you love the most, by the thing or feeling or song that made everything feel ok or right, or made stars flash before the eyes. Not knowing how delicate and dire things were. Truly seeing no other way or option, so starting over, anew, but perhaps at the cost of losing what meant most. Using a loophole to live on. But here is the song for all too see and in every song in many artists. To be a part of something. What would you have done if you knew? Tried to change it? I don't pretend to know but maybe problems leave a person in a very dark or rough place, and the idea of starting over doesn't sound so bad, especially if you had some sort of tie to a powerful structure. Who's done it, who would know, if you knew would you constantly question yourself? Would you hold it in would you tell or would you maybe sing a song about it. It has to be heading somewhere there is a place to see the truth. How would an ordinary person know this is the question, and I like to smile. I don't think he blames himself because he knows well anyway it goes way deeper than 'Courtney killed Kurt', but the cards are not easy to see.