Softheart – Deadbeat lyrics

Used to be daisies
Now it's all so crazy
Now my heart stays racing
When I'm driving down main street
Slowly
Used to always sleep now I can't sleep
Now I'm always sick and sulking
I feel like I'm crazy
Couldn't save me
I'm stuck in my ways and they ain't going
I just need to leave town get some new friends
The next thing that I know I'm in my head again
On and on it never really does end
No baby I can't help myself

(Chorus)
What are these nightmares telling me
What's the remedy
When I get so stuck
Know there's a better me
But my heads so fucked
Tryna go back baby
I don't wanna grow up
Just try my best baby
Yeah but my head won't budge
Deadbeat
I have no touch
Try counting blessings
I know I have so much
I just need a way I can get more numb

Wish i could just stop wishing
And just start to live it
I just want a minute
I just want a minute
I let one thought in and
My head starts just spinning
Just stop just quit it
I just want to fit in
I'm not kidding
Didn't want it to end
And now I'm just stuck wishing
I was just a kid then at the
Bus stop sitting
Then running off and ditching
And as much as I was sick of it then
I still miss it

I don't talk mine
But the bank knows
In a long night
Imma lay low
I don't go party
Imma stay home
I'm a soft heart
But the blade close

It's best
To love it from a distance
Yeah I know it wasn't this then
Still counting all the missed friends
Misread now i'm mislead
I can't stand what's inside my chest
There's nothing like the first one I guess
I'll always make things worse for myself
But I'll just say that i tried my best

(Chorus)
What are these nightmares telling me
What's the remedy?
When I get so stuck
Know there's a better me
But my heads so fucked
Tryna go back baby
I don't wanna grow up
Just try my best baby
Yeah but my head won't budge
Deadbeat
I have no touch
Try counting blessings
I know I have so much
I just need a way I can get more numb